Wedding bliss

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Yesterday I attended one of my roommates from college wedding. I've known Krysten for probably 8 or so years. We went through a lot as we lived in that townhome. Breakups, boy drama, roommate drama, school drama, personal stuff, you name it. But, here we are 8 years later, and we still keep in touch. 

 This wedding was just beautiful. The man she married, Eric, is literally the perfect man. There honestly couldn't be a better man in general, or a better man made for Krysten. As I was sitting at their wedding waiting for the ceremony to start I just thought about how gentle of souls they are. They are full of life. Enjoy the little things and fully embrace each other for who they are and strive to be the best they can be. 

 Beyond that, they lost a family member a week before the wedding. Had I been in their shoes, I don't know if I could have gone through with the wedding. I'm not saying I wouldn't have wanted to marry my significant other, but just not having my parent there so suddenly and dealing with that loss. Eric, is the strongest person I could have ever met. He held it together the whole day (from what I could tell). He was so excited about marrying his best friend, starting their life together, and I'm assuming he had to continuously tell himself that that is what his dad would have wanted him to do. But how does someone do that?! Stay THAT strong and enjoy their big day? 

 The way that people continuously talked about Eric and Krysten with such pride and honor of knowing them was just a total eye opener. I mean don't get me wrong, I KNOW how amazing they are. But it made me realize that thats how I want to live. And if I ever get married, thats how I want people to see me. I think I am a pretty decent person, but NOT like they are. Not even close. People said how wonderful, kind, energetic, loving, caring, compassionate, etc. that they are. On top of that, the loving of life, adventure and how much laughter they put into each others life. Thats what I want people to think of me. 

 Here's to building that for myself, and becoming that to other people. 

 xoxo, breezy

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